had a lil "aha" moment today.
So the past week and few days I have been training my replacement here at my job in west virginia. Like usual, I organized a training manual, made a training outline for myself as a sort of check list, and mentally prepared for the transition. Cuz that is what normal people do right? Don't answer that. Did I mention that the manual was somewhat anally organized/detailed and also included me making a "key". Why oh why has the good Lord given me the gift of organization? :)
So even after the first few days of training I was feeling like it was going really well. I figured out that I was using gifts/skills I learned in my college years (see they weren't completely for not) and was receiving very positive feedback regarding the training I am doing. Also the question was posed to me twice: "so why exactly are you not teaching????" Well boy oh boy did that make my wheels churn a bit.
See I know in my heart that I would be a good teacher skill wise, but my heart wouldn't be in to the degree that it would need to be in order to make me a great teacher. This is why I decided to not pursue it after college, plus I knew the Lord was leading me in another direction. I always joke and say there is a teacher inside of me....it's just comes very natural to me....BUT I have chosen to utilize these gifts in things like leading small group Bible Studies not in the public school setting.
This training experience that I am now in the midst of is showing me a skill set that I didn't see quite as clearly as I do now and man has my brain been a spinnin with how He can continue to use me in this way. THEN my aha moment! What have I like wanted to do for like a gazillion and 3 years?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Be a wife and a mommy who happens to homeschool her kiddos. uh, duh! Sooooooo I'm thinking that ultimately that is how He would like me to utilize these gifts but until then.....
Funny how He is showing me this in a new way now that I am relocating and needing a new job. Pray with me that the job He has for me will enable me to use these skills that He has so graciously blessed me with AND pray that if it's His will that He would lead me to a godly man who would like to pursue my heart and pursue it for the rest of our lives and that this so called man would also like to have a family and that it would give his heart joy that I would homeschool our kiddos. i'm just sayin.