but a likeable nut. much like:
One of my co-workers said that to me awhile back and i was reminded of that today. i kinda like that i am a nut. makes life interesting yes, no?
Friday, March 12, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
My life as of late....in 25 bullet points
in no particular order...
*enjoying my favorite time of year...MARCH MADNESSSSSSSSS baby!!!!!! Let's Goooooo 'EEEEERS!
*realized that seasonal depression is really real. for real.
*is feeling dizzy. i think it is due to me delaying the extraction of my wisdom teeth. jury's still out on my self diagnosis though.
*held lil Logan Gingerich for like 4 hours while he snuggled and cuddled. i love new borns!
*sent chocolate and coffee thoughts to my big sis. she is suffering from sleep deprivation due to a certain bundle of joy that does not enjoy the sleep.
*had a crisis moment in my leap of faith. amazing what happens when the Word penetrates a stubborn heart. crisis no longer.
*been surprised numerous times by visiting the local post office. the Lord sure does provide.
*laughed A LOT at work. what's new?
*gained weight. motivation who? motivation what?
*been on my knees on behalf of the people of Haiti and G.O. and other ministries being Jesus to numerous hurting people.
*located a DREAM dress that just might be the lil motivation I am searching for. It's super cute!
*been battling the whole church thing....amazing what sin can do.
*being in a funk does equal cancelling scheduled gal nights....boooooo. guilty. sigh.
*miss talking to my gal pal Ginny...she just had Caleb and I'm sure is exhausted. i miss my friend.
*need to send thank you notes galore. too lazy to do it. but my heart overflows with thanksgiving. this makes no sense to me.
*made chocolate chip cookies. yumm.
*kept my phone minutes under 250 for a whole month. who says i talk too much?
*been reading some blogs written by people who are dealing with some heavy heavy hurts. life and death hurts. been amazed at how clear they can see God's truth in the midst of such suffering. My life will never be the same after reading their thoughts.
*started watching American Idol again after a 5 year hiatus. wise move. wise move indeed.
*went to Red Robin. Yuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
*trusting. praying. not understanding. still praying.
*realized i have a slight hatred for winter. it's pretty and all, but after 30 some inches, yeah that pretty much equals hatred.
*my level of wanting a dog has increased. have i mentioned that my plan has been to get one when i get married. yet another thing that i may have to do without the hubby. still thinking of a name, but a LAB she will be.
*I cried when Sandra Bullock won an Oscar. Is that weird?
*decided that this blogging thing is AWESOME once again....need to do it even more regularly.
*enjoying my favorite time of year...MARCH MADNESSSSSSSSS baby!!!!!! Let's Goooooo 'EEEEERS!
*realized that seasonal depression is really real. for real.
*is feeling dizzy. i think it is due to me delaying the extraction of my wisdom teeth. jury's still out on my self diagnosis though.
*held lil Logan Gingerich for like 4 hours while he snuggled and cuddled. i love new borns!
*sent chocolate and coffee thoughts to my big sis. she is suffering from sleep deprivation due to a certain bundle of joy that does not enjoy the sleep.
*had a crisis moment in my leap of faith. amazing what happens when the Word penetrates a stubborn heart. crisis no longer.
*been surprised numerous times by visiting the local post office. the Lord sure does provide.
*laughed A LOT at work. what's new?
*gained weight. motivation who? motivation what?
*been on my knees on behalf of the people of Haiti and G.O. and other ministries being Jesus to numerous hurting people.
*located a DREAM dress that just might be the lil motivation I am searching for. It's super cute!
*been battling the whole church thing....amazing what sin can do.
*being in a funk does equal cancelling scheduled gal nights....boooooo. guilty. sigh.
*miss talking to my gal pal Ginny...she just had Caleb and I'm sure is exhausted. i miss my friend.
*need to send thank you notes galore. too lazy to do it. but my heart overflows with thanksgiving. this makes no sense to me.
*made chocolate chip cookies. yumm.
*kept my phone minutes under 250 for a whole month. who says i talk too much?
*been reading some blogs written by people who are dealing with some heavy heavy hurts. life and death hurts. been amazed at how clear they can see God's truth in the midst of such suffering. My life will never be the same after reading their thoughts.
*started watching American Idol again after a 5 year hiatus. wise move. wise move indeed.
*went to Red Robin. Yuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
*trusting. praying. not understanding. still praying.
*realized i have a slight hatred for winter. it's pretty and all, but after 30 some inches, yeah that pretty much equals hatred.
*my level of wanting a dog has increased. have i mentioned that my plan has been to get one when i get married. yet another thing that i may have to do without the hubby. still thinking of a name, but a LAB she will be.
*I cried when Sandra Bullock won an Oscar. Is that weird?
*decided that this blogging thing is AWESOME once again....need to do it even more regularly.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Land of Confusion
wisdom versus faith....
big leap versus security...
fear versus peace...
certaininty versus uncertainty...
right versus wrong...
what i want versus what i have...
what i hope for versus what i have been given...
safe versus unsafe...
question upon question upon question.
big leap versus security...
fear versus peace...
certaininty versus uncertainty...
right versus wrong...
what i want versus what i have...
what i hope for versus what i have been given...
safe versus unsafe...
question upon question upon question.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Godmother Plug - has a very nice ring to it!
I have been asked by my dear dear friends Liz and Nathaniel aka Moonlight and Roses to be the God Mother of their lil nija Toby and I couldn't be more excited. What a blessing!!! When asking my big sis what a God Mother's duties entail this was her response: "Well you give them lil things everytime u see them for no apparent reason." and if i want to be cool like her then I could be considered his FAIRY GODMOTHER. ummmmmm, thanks Reba. I think I'll just google it instead! ;)
Thanks Liz and Moonlight for this privilege...can't wait to meet my lil ninja!
Hey Lil Man....I know u r in there!!!!!!!
Told ya I'd be back with more...
Soooo about this whole earth shattering way that I view food and exercise...
This has been a long time coming actually. I believe that for the past year the Lord has been stripping lies and falsehoods from my heart and brain when it comes to how I view food. It's been a struggle to see the truth in the midst of such "logical" falsehoods...things like, you need to look after yourself first. you need to take care of you. you can and should be selfish and make changes for you. you should count calories. you should make sure that u monitor each and every thing u do for exercise and write down every morsel of food you consume. seem logical right?
well, i have been hammered with some truths that definitely counteract all those things. and please if you disagree show me some verses in the Bible where it tells you to be selfish, to put yourself above others, etc etc. You won't find any.
SO basically I have been reading a Biblically based book along with praying and reading the Word to see what the good Lord says about food and exercise. I HAVE BEEN BLOWN AWAY!!!
Basically I have learned that my body was made in such an intricate way that the Lord designed my body to know how much it needs for food and exercise. Stay with me. I need to trust Him to have my body communicate with me so that I know when I am hungry and when I am satisfied. Because He is perfect in all He does I can trust in Him to use the very thing He created to guage what and how much I eat. So what that means is I don't write anything down, I don't count points *gasp*, I don't weigh anything, and i most certainly do not get CONTROLLED by any longer to the very thing I need to live and exist.
See when I was doing WW, yes, He used that to teach me things about eating, but when it all said and done, WW is not the Bible. I was still in control though using the parameters of WW, but I was placing my trust and hope in a program not my creator.
make sense?
it does to me.
This has been a long time coming actually. I believe that for the past year the Lord has been stripping lies and falsehoods from my heart and brain when it comes to how I view food. It's been a struggle to see the truth in the midst of such "logical" falsehoods...things like, you need to look after yourself first. you need to take care of you. you can and should be selfish and make changes for you. you should count calories. you should make sure that u monitor each and every thing u do for exercise and write down every morsel of food you consume. seem logical right?
well, i have been hammered with some truths that definitely counteract all those things. and please if you disagree show me some verses in the Bible where it tells you to be selfish, to put yourself above others, etc etc. You won't find any.
SO basically I have been reading a Biblically based book along with praying and reading the Word to see what the good Lord says about food and exercise. I HAVE BEEN BLOWN AWAY!!!
Basically I have learned that my body was made in such an intricate way that the Lord designed my body to know how much it needs for food and exercise. Stay with me. I need to trust Him to have my body communicate with me so that I know when I am hungry and when I am satisfied. Because He is perfect in all He does I can trust in Him to use the very thing He created to guage what and how much I eat. So what that means is I don't write anything down, I don't count points *gasp*, I don't weigh anything, and i most certainly do not get CONTROLLED by any longer to the very thing I need to live and exist.
See when I was doing WW, yes, He used that to teach me things about eating, but when it all said and done, WW is not the Bible. I was still in control though using the parameters of WW, but I was placing my trust and hope in a program not my creator.
make sense?
it does to me.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Shocking, I know!
i decided to do something completely earth shattering in my life regarding exercise and eating....R U READY?????...R U SURE....it's gonna BLOW YOUR MIND!!!!!!
ok, here goes nothing....
i have decided to exercise daily......i know, CRAZZZZZZY...and wait, it's about to get absolutley loooooony...I'm gonna eat when I'm hungry and stop when I am satisfied.
whew....have u had time to recover yet???
i'll give u time. more to come tomorrow...
:)
ok, here goes nothing....
i have decided to exercise daily......i know, CRAZZZZZZY...and wait, it's about to get absolutley loooooony...I'm gonna eat when I'm hungry and stop when I am satisfied.
whew....have u had time to recover yet???
i'll give u time. more to come tomorrow...
:)
Monday, February 15, 2010
a lil vulnerability...
*sigh*
so the past week or so I have been catching up on my friends lives by reading blog posts, checking out photo albums on facebook, looking at the many status updates, e-mails, etc.etc. There has been a common theme in my response...
*sigh*
my response has been disappointment and frustration and a lot of sadness. it stinks that my heart is soooo wicked and it stinks that i have thoughts and feelings towards those i love. i look at the many pics of my friends and their special someone and then move on to the pics of their beautiful kiddos...this is where the battle in my heart begins. I sooo desperately want to be joyful for them. I want to leave fun comments about how fun it is that they went here and there with so and so and that their lil one is growing and changing and looking cute as ever, and then i even try to rejoice with all the new babies being born...there are MANY...but I often leave my internet updates very discouraged and angry. I HATE THAT!!!!
Seee, all of you out there have what my heart longs for the most in this life. I desire to love and serve alongside that special someone, i long to change diapers and rock a lil one that i helped create to sleep...but alas, i am left to come home to an empty cold house like i have done for now over 30 years.
Even as I admit this, I know I will get responses like "God's timing is perfect" and "don't waste your singleness, it's a gift" and I KNOW I will get "Changing diapers is hard and not always fun" blah blah blah....I know that there is truth in all of those and the many more statements I have heard many many times, yet the ache is my heart has not lessened. I know that marriage and having children is the most difficult tasks we receive on this earth, but I also can see in the many examples in front of my face how much they are a blessing too.
I don't know...I'm just frustrated at not having what I feel like I was made for...frustrated that "everyone else" has it and doesn't always appreciate it...frustrated frustrated frustrated at myself because I don't trust the Lord in these areas of my life...frustrated that I can't always 100% rejoice with my dear sisters who have the things I long for. (even if they are currently getting karate chopped on their bladder!) i'm just frustrated that I am frustrated....
*sigh*
in my mind there is no end in sight...
so the past week or so I have been catching up on my friends lives by reading blog posts, checking out photo albums on facebook, looking at the many status updates, e-mails, etc.etc. There has been a common theme in my response...
*sigh*
my response has been disappointment and frustration and a lot of sadness. it stinks that my heart is soooo wicked and it stinks that i have thoughts and feelings towards those i love. i look at the many pics of my friends and their special someone and then move on to the pics of their beautiful kiddos...this is where the battle in my heart begins. I sooo desperately want to be joyful for them. I want to leave fun comments about how fun it is that they went here and there with so and so and that their lil one is growing and changing and looking cute as ever, and then i even try to rejoice with all the new babies being born...there are MANY...but I often leave my internet updates very discouraged and angry. I HATE THAT!!!!
Seee, all of you out there have what my heart longs for the most in this life. I desire to love and serve alongside that special someone, i long to change diapers and rock a lil one that i helped create to sleep...but alas, i am left to come home to an empty cold house like i have done for now over 30 years.
Even as I admit this, I know I will get responses like "God's timing is perfect" and "don't waste your singleness, it's a gift" and I KNOW I will get "Changing diapers is hard and not always fun" blah blah blah....I know that there is truth in all of those and the many more statements I have heard many many times, yet the ache is my heart has not lessened. I know that marriage and having children is the most difficult tasks we receive on this earth, but I also can see in the many examples in front of my face how much they are a blessing too.
I don't know...I'm just frustrated at not having what I feel like I was made for...frustrated that "everyone else" has it and doesn't always appreciate it...frustrated frustrated frustrated at myself because I don't trust the Lord in these areas of my life...frustrated that I can't always 100% rejoice with my dear sisters who have the things I long for. (even if they are currently getting karate chopped on their bladder!) i'm just frustrated that I am frustrated....
*sigh*
in my mind there is no end in sight...
How CUTE is he?!?!?!?!?!
I couldn't resist....
Asher
I know i am a lil biased, but seriously people....u just don't get any cuter than this!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
i'm baaaaaack....
whoa nelly....i haven't blogged since september. where have i been from the world of blogging?? I don't even know if I know the answer to that question. Welp, here some tidbits about yours truly that should catch you up to speed.
*started a new j-o-b. I laugh A LOT when I am there, so that makes the days pretty enjoyable. I actually have been really blessed with the position I have and have met some pretty hip people.
*went to the Dominican Republic over Thanksgiving to continue working on the feeding center that Crossroads Church has committed to build in Batey Cuchillo. It was an awesome trip. I love that I feel like the Dominicans are my family and I theirs. What a blessing and privilege it was loving and serving them over a difficult holiday season.
*November 24th marked the 5 yr. anniversary of my mothers death. The Lord reminded me of some precious truths that day while I was in the Dominican. He has given me several opportunities on days that remind me of my mom to look outwards instead of sulk in my grief and sadness. I desire to honor my mom on those days and serve others. What a cool gift that was to learn that in a deeper way!!!
*Christmas in PA was fun. Always a j-o-y to see family!
*This winter has been super dreadful...I can't ever remember a winter quite like this one in such a long time. Certainly not since I moved to WV. Snow Snow Snow....I'm very much looking forward to spring!!!
*Made a surprise visit to see Becky, Peter and Asher for his 1st Birthday Party!!!! How fun to see my sister shocked that I was in TX and what a joy it was to have some Aunt Manda and Asher time. I need more of that.....
AND some BIG BIG BIG changes will be happening in the next few months....more to come, more. to. come.
Welp, that has been my life in a nutshell...more blogs on a regular basis will happen.
*started a new j-o-b. I laugh A LOT when I am there, so that makes the days pretty enjoyable. I actually have been really blessed with the position I have and have met some pretty hip people.
*went to the Dominican Republic over Thanksgiving to continue working on the feeding center that Crossroads Church has committed to build in Batey Cuchillo. It was an awesome trip. I love that I feel like the Dominicans are my family and I theirs. What a blessing and privilege it was loving and serving them over a difficult holiday season.
*November 24th marked the 5 yr. anniversary of my mothers death. The Lord reminded me of some precious truths that day while I was in the Dominican. He has given me several opportunities on days that remind me of my mom to look outwards instead of sulk in my grief and sadness. I desire to honor my mom on those days and serve others. What a cool gift that was to learn that in a deeper way!!!
*Christmas in PA was fun. Always a j-o-y to see family!
*This winter has been super dreadful...I can't ever remember a winter quite like this one in such a long time. Certainly not since I moved to WV. Snow Snow Snow....I'm very much looking forward to spring!!!
*Made a surprise visit to see Becky, Peter and Asher for his 1st Birthday Party!!!! How fun to see my sister shocked that I was in TX and what a joy it was to have some Aunt Manda and Asher time. I need more of that.....
AND some BIG BIG BIG changes will be happening in the next few months....more to come, more. to. come.
Welp, that has been my life in a nutshell...more blogs on a regular basis will happen.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)